You’re Crazy

13 Dec

Call me crazy, but I wanna change the world. Maybe it’s radical thinking…maybe it’s finally thinking clearly.

I’ve gotten to this place in my life where I’m just sick of wasting it. I’m tired of not speaking up when I should. I’m tired of not loving others even if they do something unlovable or are unlovable. I’m tired of not helping people out of sin if I have the chance. I’m tired of watching The Body be so divided.

I love that Christianity is truly a relationship with God and not a list of do’s and don’ts. Which means that I have the chance to constantly grow and learn and fall deeper in love with God. It’s a constant process of being transformed and molded into who God wants me to be. Over the last few months, God has completely revolutionized my thinking, which has changed the way I live my life. And I look back at Romans 12 and seeing it played out in my own life makes God’s Word even more precious to me and makes Him even more real. “Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.” Romans 12:2

I’m sick of missing opportunities because I wanna do what I want to do. Because I’d rather look out for me than others. Because it’s my life, so go away. I don’t want to get to the end of my life and think, “I really should have told that person how much I loved them. I really should have shown them. I knew I should have tried to help that person out of sin, but because I didn’t they went down a path of destruction and I missed out on being used by God.” I don’t want to come face to face with my Savior and not see a smile on His face. I don’t want to hear Him tell me how I didn’t love like He loved. How I didn’t give more of myself. How I held on to hate. I just don’t want to live that way. I get ONE life. ONE chance to do all I can to share the love of Christ. To be His hands and feet. To disciple people. And I’d rather fail along the way then never try at all. I’d rather have the world and people who claimed to have “loved” me laugh in my face and talk behind my back then not do what God has called me to do and not be who He has called me to be. I will not put my toe in the water to check the temperature first. I’ve already taken the plunge! Every area of my life, every situation, with every person. Because I know He’ll never let me drown.

There’s an overwhelming sense of urgency I’ve felt the past few months, and God has opened my eyes to opportunities that I just want to seize with everything I’ve got even though I’ve failed. Even though I’ll continue to fail and learn along the way. I wanna run after chances for Him to use me and put forth every effort I have into doing what He’s asked. I wanna be a part of something bigger than me. I so desperately want to be used in a movement that changes the course of history and Christianity. A revolution, perhaps. And I wanna bring as many people along for the ride as I possibly can. But I’ve learned, for every self-centered attitude or action I posses, we posses, that’s another missed chance to be used by God. I’m convinced if we would just love, and look outside ourselves then things would be dramatically different. In our own lives, in the way people view my Jesus, in the way we interact within The Body of Christ. And even how we treat the rest of the world who doesn’t share in our beliefs.

All we really have to lose is ourselves…and isn’t that the goal?

He must become greater and greater, and I must become less and less.

John 3:30

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